3am.
I couldn’t sleep. I mean, I had fallen asleep but
woken up at this odd hour. Why? I felt very uncomfortable and turned to the
door way I had been backing to walk out and get a glass of water or may be pee.
My internal system felt confused.
I saw a shadow at my door; the outline was that of a
man. I jerked back instantly out of shock, turned on the bedside lamp and Louis
came out of the shadows.
‘Did I startle you? I am sorry. I couldn’t sleep and
I heard you moving so I came to check on you to see if you were okay’
I was too frightened to say a word so I waited till
I had caught my breath. It had escaped my mind that I had a visitor over for
the night.
‘It is okay. I completely forgot that you were here.
I am fine’ I cracked a soft smile to assure him that I was no longer shaken.
‘Can I come in?’
‘Sure’
He walked in and sat down close to me. We were quiet
for a few seconds when I felt him breathing heavily against my neck about to
kiss me.
I moved back quickly with a shocked and surprised
look on my face.
‘What are you doing?’ I asked.
He sneered.
‘Oh Please, Gee. Don’t pretend like you do not know
what is about to happen’ He moved closer to me.
‘Err…No Louis. I really don’t know what is about to
happen. For me, it is nothing but you seem to have
fireworks exploding in your
brain’
‘Hidden? With all those smiles and glances you throw
my way in class, the persistent flirting. You even invited me into your place
to-‘
‘As a form of kindness because it was raining
outside!’ I exclaimed, still backing away from him till I hit the wall.
‘Gee, you know you want this as much as I do. I see
it in your eyes. The longing to be held by a man since Koji-‘
‘Kojo.’
‘Whatever. He doesn’t matter now. Don’t do this to
us. Let me take care of you’
His face was close to mine and his body even closer.
I looked away and placed my arms protectively across my chest.
As he got closer to my thighs, I flinched and tried
to find a mental state where I could justify what was about to happen. Thoughts
begun to race through my mind. What was I fighting? Maybe he was right? Maybe
deep inside I did want to be with a man. It has been so long and I do have
needs. Louis isn’t such a bad idea. He is unattractive and repulsive to me but I
did lead him on by letting him in so maybe I subconsciously want him but I am
living in denial. He can’t be that disappointing in bed, could he? He slid his
hand through my night shorts which was free and began to work on me. I felt
disgusted so when he laid me on the bed, I laid there, stagnant and let him do
everything else.
I made very little movements and hardly said a word.
He took off my shorts, leaving the top on. He tried to kiss my lips but I
looked away. He stopped and held my face, slowly directing it towards his lips.
I kissed him back but I became nauseated the moment his moustache touched my
lips. I quickly looked away and he worked his hands up my vest and began to
massage my breasts. I wriggled uncomfortably under him. He was breathing
heavily on me and kissing me all over like a hungry animal.
Without any warning, he put himself inside me. I
looked away to the wall beside me, at the picture of me and Kojo on the desk
that stood by it. Tears began to roll down my eyes. I felt like a cheap, little
whore. Anything that would take my mind away from the horrid human that was
grunting on top of me and kept moaning out my name, how good I felt; how he loved me, how I feel so soft and warm
inside and he wants me forever, was very welcome at that moment.
At a point, I thought he was going to cry. Turns out
he was just having an orgasm. I think he did cry. He came on my bed sheet. My
own clean, fresh bed sheet. He grunted for the last time and fell down lazily
on the bed.
He was out of me. That was want I wanted. He was still
breathing heavily like he had just run marathon. I curled up into a fetal
position and silently cried out my shame. I used my hand to cover my crotch for
fear that he might decide to go in again.
‘Baby.’ He began stroking my back slowly.
‘Yes’, I answered softly.
‘You are beautiful; in and out. I have never felt
this way before about any of the girls I had been with at the first date. They
all looked like whores to me but you…Gee…you, I think I’m in love with you. You
enjoyed it too, right?’
‘Yes’, I answered in the previous manner.
He snickered and kept on.
‘Yes! I could hear you screaming my name and how
good I was. I thought you were going to cry at a point when I was giving it to
you’
He tapped my naked ass and sighed. There was silence.
‘Wow. Babe, I think it has stopped raining.’
I looked at the clock on the table. It was a few
minutes to four.
‘And it is nearly four. I think it is best I take my
leave now. This is usually the time I wake to go to the gym. Got to keep fit to
do all of this, look good and keep you happy you know’
He got up and began to get dressed.
I wiped away the tears from my eyes, hoping that it
wouldn’t show that I had been crying the whole time. I looked around the bed
for my shorts and shirt and quickly put them on. He walked out as soon as he
was dressed, to the living room and picked up whatever he had left in there. I
met him in front of the entrance door.
He stopped and looked at me.
‘You are wonderful’
I cracked a fake smile and looked away. I unlocked
the door and held it open till he was ready to get out.
“I’ll see you in class on Saturday?’
I smiled and nodded.
‘Ok. Saturday it is. See you then my love’
He leaned in and kissed my forehead. I smiled again
without a word.
He left. I cleaned my forehead and walked into my
room. I took out the bed sheets and everything on me that had his smell placed
it in the laundry basket; walked into the bathroom and cried while having a hot
shower to wash out my shame.
No comments:
Post a Comment
Share your Thoughts